i'm used to having weird dreams, it's not something out of the ordinary but this one was SO out of the box i just don't get it! anyway hopefully i'll remember it all but i'm warning this is LONG! and i didn't re-write it so it must be written not that great:

it started when my dad bought a building to live in and fix it, he's a contractor, and the apartment he picked for me came with furniture.
there used to be an old couple in the apartment I got, so there were a lot of tiny dolls/china/porcelain dolls of cats, smily cats, even some made of wood.
my dad showed me the apartment, asked me if it's all right, i said it's just fine and after looking around the apartment, seeing that it's filled with tons of dark wood classic furniture and huge long drapes on each window, including the porch.

i decided to rid myself of most of the stuff, it made me uncomfortable.. i loved the old classic furniture but it made everything unnecessarily old.
as i was about to grab one of the smiling cats ugly wood carvings, a friend of mine called me and she said she's outside the building. i wasn't surprised, i get random visits always.
i went down the spiral stairs of the building, got to the bottom, opened the front door, said hello and had a small chat on random stuff, weirdly enough she somehow parked in the middle of the lobby, which wasn't all that nice, all made of filthy concrete.

while we talked these guys kept popping in the building, around 3-4 asking where is "winston" so we both decided it's probably a clothing store that was closed after my dad bought the place.
they said the place was cheap and stuff so we thought maybe it was like the red cross or something.
after a while she asked what is in this building? i said i have no idea and told her that we should find out.
we started walking around the lobby, which was very big, here and there some graffiti on the walls.
down some stairs, up some, left right, don't remember.

eventually i lost her. i called her name, i couldn't even hear her. i saw the more i walk the more the place has graffiti, on purpose, the walls were colored black and the graffiti was neon. like this place used to be a club or something. there was even a large empty square place thing, so it really looked like a club.
i went up some stairs, all the time i went down so perhaps if i'll go up i'll find her..
up the stairs, walked straight ahead and i got to a dead end hallway, i turned back to go where i was and then i noticed,
the walls shifted. the walls shifted constantly, i just couldn't see it before.

i thought "Oh Fuck" and started walking forward, i then i saw a bar. tiny bar, with some yellow candle light, something out of a LOTR movie with lots of strange people.
i thought i'll ask them how do i get out of here. so i got in the bar, everything ordinary but then i saw that those strange people i met... were not exactly people, some were zombies, vampires, i don't know what else, but it was fucking scary. it's not like the vampire movies when they are extremely creepy or beautiful, no, they looked like ordinary ugly people with shiny eyes and a stare that you know they can break you in two.
zombies overall freak me out, no clue why they were in a bar but they came in REALLY close and i was petrified, i froze.

this girl looked at me, she sat on the bar, she told me "take a cigarette" i understood the clue it was like "Blend in, be cool", i suppose that was "winston" place, a cigarette pun?!
i snatched one of her cigarettes light it up and started pumping. i was so afraid my body was shaking and i as moving like a robot that is trying to smoke.
i told her i needed to get out of there, NOW, i don't want to be lunch.

she said that i need to cool down.. something something, don't remember but then surprisingly enough, while i was looking that none of these creatures is getting too close,
i saw my mom! wearing a black mini dress, looking beautiful, like always.
i called her, i told her i want to go home, she said no problems, she just needs the bathroom and we are off.
i went with her, those things kept looking at me, if it was sexual it would of been cool but it wasn't. it was hunger.

she went in for a minute, got out, wearing a white short jacket with a white mini dress.
i didn't understand how she got the cloths- she only had a tiny bag with her, but i didn't care, i just wanted out.
she went to the sink- above them were pictures of old people, next to the mirrors, she took out a huge white marker and tarnished the picture of the old woman there,
like a kid.

i woke up.

today, i showed all the work i want to present in my final BFA exhibition.

and i know more or less how i'd want the gallery to look like (floors/walls/light etc) and what i want to exhibit,
i have it arranged in my mind...
last week i had a lot of arguments on, basically, everything... how i work (none of their business) i want to take some time off before the exhibition they said i need to work until the last minute, that i can't transfer the stuff from my house to the school because i don't have the funds to do so. basically they think money grows on trees.
and lastly that i'll might have to share a space with an another crappy artist... although the school is pretty huge and we are a very small group /:

today they suggested that i'll put a GLASS BOX around my objects.
like a display window and because they say i'm hard headed and i don't listen and i pretty much take a dump on other people's opinions
which is somewhat correct but not that extreme. i just know my opinion is what counts, until someone will convince me otherwise. my show- my decisions.

i totally faked it and said i will think of it and showed overall interest.
but really,
WTF? why the hell should i do that?
that's moronic.

am i alone here having these kind of problems?!

and it's not the first time they give me a stupid idea and get mad at me for disagreeing.
morons. thank jehova i'm finishing this degree soon.

fuck'em.